I will move through the space and silence with as much grace as I can muster.
I think of you fondly and not so fondly too to be honest. My heart feels a little beaten. Laid open only to be left in the cold steely quiet. But I let those feelings fall from the tree, like the leaves of fall. They hit the cool ground and kiss the grass for the last time. And in that kiss those thoughts transform into gratitude for the letting go and the change of seasons.
I hope you are well. That you have found your own peace in the silence.
It takes all my willpower to not call or text you. And really I should be silent here as well. But these words won't stop forming on these lips. The lips that miss your own and crease wide open with the memory of a night under the stars with you.
So many good memories.
I hope they can heal the sour memories in time.
Although I am a cloudy soul at the moment, I am well. I think of you often, like every second often. I feel your name on my lips in everyday conversation and have to hold back from letting you spill from me. I want to savor every first moment, every last and it feels as if I speak them aloud that they will drift along the winds of whisper until the cease to exist, so I hold you close and will never let memory of our time go. Forever mine, I will hold them until they melt into my skin, your touch, a gently kiss, smiling eyes and laughter that warmed my heart, these plus so many other things will be the tingle I feel randomly through out the day.
ReplyDeleteI can't help but look for you and one day I know this will pass but for now, I'm ok with watching you from a distance. Remember your warm light glows even in the darkest of times. Hold it high and let it show you the way.