Scars

I saw these words posted today on a friend's site. They stopped me cold in my tracks.

Sometimes you love someone or some living thing so much that it hurts. It's a strange combination of feelings that are difficult to explain. The word "hurt" doesn't do that feeling justice. It's almost an intolerable ache that simmers inside you as you realize just how attached you heart is.

It feels like a longing almost unsatisfied unless we are ONE. This kind of heart break brings you to the brink of insanity and there is nothing you can do to ease it. Time heals the wound but always leaves a deep scar.

I have only experienced this same kind of aching love with my boys and with you. 

I feel the scar of losing your love beginning to form. The sharp points of pain are simmering and calming into a dull ache. Love whispers in my ear that I will understand in time. That something very very good will come of this. That the scars will only make us more beautifully human (if we stay open to that outcome). 

I hold onto that. That idea. That the scars can be beautiful. That being human is beautiful. That imperfect love and even loss is beautiful. 

But damn this hurt and longing is not easy. If I can find my way through (and I know I will) I'm going to have one amazing story on the other side.